Case of Vertigo

Life is a-changin' and it's kind of makin' my head spin.

It's just a bizarre feeling. For the first time in my life I have no strings holding me to anyone or anything. Sounds great, right? Well, maybe it would be if I weren't so damn indecisive in the first place. Seriously... I'm the the girl who takes twenty minutes to decide what I want at a restaurant that I've been to many times over again. I'm the girl who picks out something in a store, walks around with the intent to purchase it and then talks myself out of it right as I'm about to check out. I'm the girl who can be immobilized on a free day because I can't decide what to do. And it's not as if my current dilemma is just my dinner choice or which color shirt to buy. This is the rest of my life. Okay, that may be a bit dramatic but...it could be.

Over-analyzing? Probably. That's me. It's what I do. But don't go judging. At least once I do make my decision, I am fully committed to it. In all reality, it's quite an honorable character trait. Or maybe that's just me rationalizing it...

I think what I'm freaking out the most about is that not one option is comfortable and/or easy. Usually there is at least one option that is comfortable, right? Right?? Nope. I either take a huge chance in one direction or huge chance in another. So then I think, 'Okay, then decide with your head and not your heart'. Well, my head and heart are equally invested in both directions so that's no help at all.

My move is to just breathe. Take each day at a time. Let time tell. Be still... and all that. Sounds like the best path, right?

Sure. Easy for you to say, you people with all of your strings and all your attachments. You're just a bunch of jerks is what you are.