Dreams

I don't know what the deal has been lately but I've been having freakishly vivid dreams. They haven't been nightmares or anything just...really life-like.

I had a dream last night that a bride and groom that I worked with two years ago were working for me. I was outside of our showroom which we had just painted and I was really happy with the new paint colors. Then these two people (whom, in the dream, I didn't realize were my past clients but did realize worked for me) walk up. The chick is talking smack about my paint choices and the dude is trying to get her to keep quiet. Then I walk up and am all like, "Laurel, you don't like the paint? Well, I picked it. If you don't like it then you can just leave". In the dream I'm also going over financial calculations and contracts with my dad. The really weird thing is that it all made sense...like I'm actually doing work in my sleep. Very strange.

So, that's been my dream pattern for the past two or three weeks. I don't quite know what to make of it. My dreams are usually all mush...all kinds of weird concepts that don't make any sense once I wake up.

Maybe my brain is bored. That's probably it. I'm so anxious to get this business off the ground. I know that one day I'm going to look back and wish I had embraced the bum-ness of being unemployed a little more than I am but...eh. I don't like feeling like a waste of space.

It's such a weird time in my life. It's good but...still weird. It's as if everything is at a stand-still. As if everything is moving around me but I'm stuck in the place I stand. The strangest thing about it is that I'm strangely alright with it. I know that it's not a forever type of a thing. Big things are on the horizon so for now I just need to sit tight and enjoy the down time.

And enjoy the freakishly realistic dreams. Hopefully my next one will involve Brad Pitt or Robert Pattinson. Hell, maybe both of 'em! Oooh...I like where that's going. Yes sir!