Stalling Out

I feel like I've hit a brick wall. Or a fork in the road. Or something along those lines.

Ever since moving I just can't seem to find the right path to take. It's not a lack of motivation, per se, but more like I get going in one direction and change my mind and go in another direction. Then I see something on the periphery and am all like, 'Oooh, pretty!'.

I know that a part of my problem is the fact that I am very much like my astrological sign: Gemini. This is what I'm going through: "Geminis can easily become bored, and aren't great at concentrating on a single project for a long period of time. They become restless when there isn't enough change and excitement, and there's nothing a Gemini hates more than feeling stuck in a rut. When Geminis get bored with a project, they're known to just stop working on it so they can focus on something else that catches their attention." And that's driving me crazy.

I am dying for some travel time, for something new and exciting. However, that's not going to get me anywhere in the long run and I know it. I hate having to make adult decisions. One of my dualities is parent/child. A part of me is saying, "You can travel and go have fun but not now. For now you need to sit tight and focus." Then the child is saying,"No! I want to have everything I want right now! Why is this taking so long?" Their bickering is driving me to some serious distraction.

Bleh. I don't know, let's hope this passes and quickly. In the meantime I'm going to go start reading a third book (because I already have two other books half read and I might as well indulge my preoccupied ridiculousness).